dispersing myself

So, it's 3 o' clock in the morning already, and I am having two important exams of my life in the coming 34 days and here I am en route to this boggling and hard to decode thought of LOVE. Everyone around here has his own share of experiences with this phenomenon called 'Love'. I mean it is an experience hard to evade in a lifetime. My one of the favorite rap artist Eminem calls Love as "Evol" when you spell it backwards :). So, I guess he pictured love as a destruction :) I am here to talk about myself.  And as I am missing her today, I have written something about my experience mixed with some fiction that I made up while writing this: This unsettling feeling within my heart is far from sinking. What buoys it, keeps it afloat is that part of mine which is not letting you go.  I know I will never overcome this. No matter how hard I try to win over this thought I will succumb on your birthday and I will have to start afresh this  battle of forget...

बरसते बारिश की बूंदों की तरह यादें कुछ ठहर गयी थी मेरे मन के पत्तों पर, चाहे जितना नाज़ुक मन हो मेरा पर इन बूंदों का भार अच्छा लगता है ।  आती जाती इन हवाओं के असर से जो तुम थोड़ी फिसलती हो, तो तुम्हें खोने का डर भी लगता है । लेकिन चाहे जितना संभालूं तुमको, पास सदा नहीं पाऊंगा।  जब खोऊंगा रात को ख़्वाबों में तेरे, तो कल की पहली किरण संग तुम कहीं गुम  हो जाओगी इन हवाओं में।  पर ये सफर जारी रहेगा जैसे जारी है प्रकृति में बारिश, हाँ जारी रहेगी मेरी ये टूटी उम्मीदों का सफर.....   :)