A puzzle yet to solve


So, it's 3 o' clock in the morning already, and I am having two important exams of my life in the coming 34 days and here I am en route to this boggling and hard to decode thought of LOVE.
Everyone around here has his own share of experiences with this phenomenon called 'Love'. I mean it is an experience hard to evade in a lifetime. My one of the favorite rap artist Eminem calls Love as "Evol" when you spell it backwards :). So, I guess he pictured love as a destruction :)
I am here to talk about myself. And as I am missing her today, I have written something about my experience mixed with some fiction that I made up while writing this:

This unsettling feeling within my heart is far from sinking. What buoys it, keeps it afloat is that part of mine which is not letting you go. I know I will never overcome this.
No matter how hard I try to win over this thought I will succumb on your birthday and I will have to start afresh this  battle of forgetting you again.
And, I don't want to sound like a loser because even if I was unconsciously trying to win over you, after such worthless toil in the last few years I have realized that this is not a game. There is absolutely no point of winning and losing.
In fact, if we take a look at the  broad picture -- "Love is not a one way or two way traffic. It is a whole network of feelings in which not one, not two but the entire human race is involved"
I don't consider it as a qualm if you don't reciprocate what I feel for you. I am fond of you that's it and I am happy if you are with someone who you are fond of. This is not a sacrifice, not a gift but just a normal human gesture. This is too philosophical way of saying that, but yeah, this is really what it is.
I just hope that someday we will come on the same page and then if we remember each others faces in our mind/heart (me in your mind and you in my heart) a smile should invade our lips automatically. That shouldn't fade, never.
Love is just loving not loving back❤.
Someday I will manage a way out of this abyss, but when ??
Not at this hour for sure :)
Bye, till then!

 आखरी में अपने लफ़्ज़ों में कहता हूँ कुछ --
" जान बुझ कर की गयी गुस्ताखियाँ माफ़ की खुदा ने ,
    बस अनजाने में किया गया इश्क़ का फैसला किसी और के हाथ  में दे दिया । "








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  1. AviJanuary 1, 2017 at 7:32 PM

    Superb bro...For me love is like'' palko PR jab terii yaado ka bojh aaya,aankhe band ki to tuje aur v khoobsoor paya...N this type of feeling come with"be with love not to a huge fight between me n love... Now I know how to manage a way out of this abyss... Thanking u...

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